Akash pov

She is sleeping right now.. After making me so uncomfortable today this girl is sleeping so peacefully and smiling..I can bet in her dreams also she is laughing at me..

Why am I smiling thinking this..If anyone else was here instead of her he would be dead before making fun of me..I don't know what is happening to me..I never talked to a girl..I have only fucked them..

But with her it's different..I like talking to her...I feel at peace after talking to her..This is so wrong I should not feel this..If anybody comes to find out about this I will be so embarassed..

Today my mood was so off..If it would have been any other day like one month back I would have not cared for talking..I would have just fucked her hard like the initial months of marriage..

But things are so changed now..Six months have crossed and I have started feeling different...And by different means I talked with a girl..It was the longest conversation I have had with a girl..Things started changing from the day she cleaned me..I still remember that night..Oh it felt so good..I have never heard with anyone about that..

That day when my father slapped me I was so much angry.. Last time he did that I killed two of my enemy...But then there was this woman who came to me to make a deal that I let her stay on the terrace to escape from my mother..She has blown my mind that day..Was she for real?? I really thought that day that is she really not afraid of me...Has she started disrespecting me because I started talking little bit with her..Has she started taken me for granted..This thought raged me..And in anger I said I will fuck her..But the way she ran by lifting her saree my anger subsided..

She was just a mad girl and she has started making me mad ...

And by helping her for washroom I did a great favour... No husband do that favours on their wife..She must have felt special and grateful of me..

But when she started crying for that I don't know why I felt bad ...I hate that feeling..She makes me feel sometimes which I should not feel..Those feelings are no good for any man..And even by mistake if anyone comes to know about my different feelings I will loose respect...

That's why I have decided I will never let anyone know about my feelings..

Yesterday also when I was coming from the doctor after taking medicine for her I met my old friends Suresh, rajveer, suyash..

Flashback starts

Suyash: Are bhai bade logo ke darshan ho rhe..Khan hai bhai ajkal tum??

Shadi kya Hui ham sabko to bhul hi gye..

Akash: I laughed and said are nhi yaar thoda bss kaam me busy ho gye the ham..

Suresh: Are chal be chal hame sab pta hai kon se kaam me busy tha..Nyi nyi shadi hui thi bhabhi s door hatne k man nhi kiya hoga ...

My expression changed...

Rajveer: Bol to aise raha hai jaise khud door tha..Bhabhi k pair ek mahine me hi bhari kar diye the...

Everybody became silent because Suresh's wife miscarriage was happened on second month of pregnancy..

Akash: Are chal koi baat nhi bhagwan n ab do beta de diya hai..Ab anhoni ko kon taal sakta hai..

Suyash: Are bhai anhoni nhi thi issi baat ka to dukh hai..Sab kavita ki wajah se hi hua tha..Patni hai wo uska kaam hai pati ko har tarike se khush karna..Uss raat zara sa thak kya gye the uss ko bol diye muh me lekar choos lo..Magar nhi maharani ko neend aa rhi thi..Uski galti hai hamko gussa aaya pet k bal lita kar kas ke chut chod diye or issi Wjh s bacha gir gya..

Rajveer: Are koi baat nhi yaar sabak sikhana bhi to zaroori hota hai.. Issliye ham to shaadi ki pehli raat hi sab bata diye the..

Suresh: Shi baat h aurat jaat s zra sa baat kya kar lo udne lag jati hai..Ham to kehte hai har mahine do mahine sutai chahiye hoti hai..Phir thik thak kaam krti hai..Ham to dete h tamacha khich k muh p jahan naa nukur ki chudne se..

Rajveer: Dete to ham roj hi hain..Wo kya hai na mare Bina hamko chodne me mazaa ni ata chahe lugai ho ya randi..

Everybody laughs there..

Suyash: Kya ho gya bhai tu kyu chup h bol..Tune ko kabhi baat tak nhi ki kisi aurat se..Chudai k ilawa tu to muh bhi ni lagata tha..Tere se to aurat chod mard bhi darte hai.. Bechari bhabhi tere se to bht suti hongi or teri chudai bardasht kr bhi payi thi pehli baar ki nhi..Tune to pela hoga janwar ki tarah...

And suddenly I started feeling suffocated..I said acha ham abhi nikalte hain..Kuch zaroori kaam hai..Fir milte hai..And I walked out of there without even properly greeting them..

And I didn't know why..All my frnds were correct..I also agree with them..But why am I suddenly feeling not so good.. Imagining doing these things to her makes me feel..I don't know how to name that..I mean she is my wife and I can do anything with her and while sex also..

But I like when she enjoys..I still remember how I literally begged to her that day when she took my dick in her mouth..It was like I was not in my control...And it's not about just that day.. It's about every time I fuck her I get more aroused when I see her enjoying the sex..

I just don't want to think about this deep..I just don't have to tell anyone about my thoughts then everything will be good..

Flashback ends

During her periods also don't know what came into me that I did this much of a big sin by calling on the bed..I told her I will talk to my mother but I can never say this to my mother..God knows what will happen when she comes to know about this??

I just called her to bed because it was getting kind of difficult for me to sleep without her..Not hugging but at some distance..I still don't like hugging..But I hugged her the day she cleaned me bcoz I felt so good and I wanted to do something for her.. Bcoz I knew that day she was tired bcoz of all the fucking in the car

Thinking this I slept..At morning my eyes opened and I again saw her clinging on to me like a monkey..Why does she sleep like this..

I try to remove her but then she clings on to me more tightly.. Agggghhh aeeee ladki uth...Uth jaaa...Aeeee bandariya.... Chandni Uth...

She directly sat on the bed with her eyes open...

C- Kya bulaye aap hamko??

A- Bandariya..Aisa kon sota h be..Haan..Maa n kuch sikhaya nhi hai...

Suddenly her face became dull..Ok what happened to her??

A- Kya ho gya???Ek to sone ni aata upar se kuch bol do to muh bna liya..

She becomes silent for some time...And after that she said nhi mere mumma papa jab ham chote the tab hi mar gye the to unki bat ab hamko zyada nhi yaad hai...I became silent after listening that..

After sometime i said acha thik hai waise bhi hamko adat ho gyi h waise sone ki..Koi na so Jaya kar ham kuch nhi bolenge...

Author pov

Akash became silent after saying that..He felt very bad for her..That immediately reminded him how he married her after so many months..

He started feeling more bad..He thought that's why no one ever came to find her because she is all alone in the world..

Akash pov

Ok !! I need to think about something else..I am not feeling good..I can marry any girl however I want...But she is looking so sad..

So what if she is looking sad..I have not killed her parents..Why should I feel bad..

Suddenly I listened a scream..She has fallen at the washroom door and was holding her leg..I immediately ran towards her

A- Kya hua??Gir kaisy gyi..Khan chot lgi h bta..

I looked at her she has tears in her eyes..I picked her in my arms and moved towards the bed and kept her there slowly...

A- Kahan lagi h bata...

C- (while crying) Aaaa dard kar raha hai...

I was getting frustrated..Why is she not telling me where she got hurt..

I shouted at her puch rhe na kaha laga h bata... Listening to me she started crying more...

A- Acha acha thik h roo mat..Bata kahan laga hai..Ham nhi chilla rahe...

C-pair me laga hai...

A- Pair me kahan pe???

C- Ghutne p

I started lifting her saree..She quickly stopped my hand...

I saw her and told sach me... tere badan k har ek ched me ungli daal chuke ham...Or tumko ghutna dikhane me sharam aa rha hai..

She gave me an angry look and removed her hand..I saw her knee it was hurt.. Little blood was flowing...

I went outside the room and told the servant to call the compounders wife...

After sometime she came..My mother saw her and asked kya hua isko kyu bulaya hai ...Aaj kal iska ghumna hamare ghr m zyada nahi ho rha hai..

A- Nhi maa usko chot lgi.. Issliye bulaya hai...

My mother gave me an angry look and went from there..I took her in my room and said iska pair dekh kar thik kar isko...

That lady doctor saw her leg and started bandaging her..

Suddenly she shouted Ahhhhh dhire...

A- Kya kar rhi hai aaram s patti kar..

Suddenly my mother came in my room and said kya ho gya..Kya hungama laga hua hai subah subah ...

Or dactarni kya hua hai iss ladki ko...

LD- Bss thoda sa hi chot laga hai...

Listening this my mother said itna sa chot k liye dactar bulanae ka kya jaroorat tha.. Khud hi thik ho jata..

Chalo khair aa hi gyi ho to dekh kar batao ye ladki maa ban bhi sakti hai ya nahi..Ya bas time kharab kar rhi ham sabka...

I looked at that girls face..Her expressions were horror..She was looking scared.. Suddenly she screamed Aaaahhhh thakur jii...

I ran towards her and held her hand..

I shouted at that lady dhang se kaam karna nhi aata to bhag yha se..

LD- Itna to chot bhi ni laga hai.. Jitna ye chilla rahi hain..

I was so furious..How dare she talk to my wife like that...I grabbed her neck and pressed it with pressure...That lady's face started turning pale..My mother and that girl started shouting to leave her..My mother came and started removing my hands but she was not able to... Suddenly I heard that girl screaming..I left doctor's neck and moved towards her and said bistar s kyu uthi.. Baith chup chap...

C- Aap Plzz mat mariye usko..She started crying while saying this..

I saw that doctor shivering..I moved towards her and said aaj Jane de rhe agli baar nhi milega mouka...

My mother was shocked listening to me..She quickly moved out with the doctor..

Ignoring them I went towards her and said baith ja ham bahar maa ko bol denge k tujhe aaj aaram karne de..

I stood up and moved to the washroom to get fresh..I came out and got ready..I saw her through the mirror she was sitting and drinking water.. Suddenly she started coughing...

I ran towards her and started patting her back ..

A- Tujhe koi kaam dhang se karna na aata hai na...Us wqt bhi gir gyi thi..Khan dhyan rhta h tera..

She looked at me teary eyed and said mumma k bare me yaad kr rhe the or dhyan nhi diye issliye gir gye...

I again started feeling bad..I stood up and started walking out of the room but suddenly I moved towards her sat on the bed and hugged her tightly...