Chandni pov

He hugged me..

Hey bhagwan wo hamko hug kiye hue hain or wo bhi kitni zor se..

After sometime he left me and said aaram kar or uchal kood mt krna...

He didn't looked at me and said this...

After saying this he went out..

Whole day I was in my room..As thakur ji said his mother didn't came to taunt me today.. Everybody has done their dinner..I was waiting for him..Will he care for me like morning..Why was I feeling so giddy?? Suddenly my mind rememberd the hug he gave me today morning..

My heart was beating so fast..Oh God he doesn't like to hug... Yesterday he agreed for not doing sex.. Today he cared about me so much after I got injured..

So many things are happening at once..I am not able to decide what to feel..I am definitely happy but again

whenever I try to be happy then suddenly my mind reminds me how I get married to him..How he treated me in initial months of marriage..

I mean the things he is doing for me now ,if someone would have told me one month before that he will do those things for me I  would have never  believed..

I mean how could I?? Now also I don't know if he is gonna be same or not..Or he is gonna change or am I  gonna be satisfied with this..I mean I already feel guilty for enjoying the sex.. I don't know I just want to be happy..But I am scared I have never seen happiness in my life for a long time..

Sometimes here I feel that my life before coming here is real or not..Was I dreaming before then.. Ofcourse it's not possible how can I dream but then again no one talks about my previous life.. It's like that doesn't exist..It is like I always belonged here..

Why am I feeling like crying today??I am missing kids Lata di and my friend Sushma..How are they??Are they even fine??

I have thought so many time to talk to him about them but I am afraid of his answers.. What if he says something that breaks all my hope..I am ready to live in delusion that they are fine that gives me hope that I will meet them someday..

Oh God it is 2:00 clock now..He has not came home till now...He should have come early today to check me..What if he is in a problem..Is he safe...

Or I should be praying for other people safety from him..He is danger for everybody else..By the way that was so sweet of him to scold that lady..She was being unnecessarily mean to me...But I don't understand one thing she knows thakur ji very well infact everybody knows and no one will purposely try to instigate him and by looks of her she got shocked when he held her neck...

I mean why was she shocked..She was rude to me..But anyways I didn't like the way he held her neck..I mean she could have died..

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Next day I woke up and saw my bed was empty and he was not there...Oh my God he didn't come home all night..Where was he??Is he alright??

I woke up from the bed and went to bathroom for freshening up..

I came in the kitchen and started doing my work.. Shanti saw me and said kya hua bhabhi aap itna chup chup kyu hain aaj..

C- Nahi kuch bhi to nahi

S- Are bol bhi dijiye.. Bhaiya ko yaad kr rhi kya??

Then Dhuni entered the kitchen she saw us talking and came towards us...

S- Dekh na Dhuni bhabhi bhaiya ko miss kr rhi...

D- Zahir hai aaj kal wo itna pyara pyara kam kr rhe hain..Yaad to aayega hi unka..Waise ham sach me khush hai aapke liye...

I was getting irritated now..Why will I miss him..I will never miss him...

C- Aisa kya kar diye wo??

S-Kya kar diye?? Aapko pta hai bhaiya k karname k charcha pure gaanv me ho rha hai..

I asked getting scared for him...

C-Kon se karname??

S-Are whi jo unhone dactarni ko aapke k liye hadkaya...Pta h aapko wo aurat bht buri hai..Jis bhi aurat ka ilaaj krne jati hai us ko beizzat krti hai or unke saas or pati ko ye bol deti hai ki zyada hi nakhra dikha rhi hai...Or ye sab kuch sab saas k nazar me ache banne k liye karti hai..Taki wo apne bete se keh kar usko or paise de de..

C- Isse kya fayda hoga saas log ka...

S- Ohoo bhabhi aap bhi na... Matlab pati k saamne bura bana diya uski lugai ko to wo marega datega usko or iss chiz s sabse zyada khushi kisko milegi???

Saas ko hi na...

C- Oh acha ab ham samjhe... Magar usko pata nhi hoga ki haveli ki auraton k saath wo aisa nhi kr skti... Bechari glt jagah phas gyi...

They both became silent and sad ..

C- Kya ho gya?? Tum dono chup kyu ho gyi..

D- Sabki kismat aapke jaisy nhi h bhabhi..Or ye baat to shi bola aapne ki wo glt jagah phas gyi..Magar haveli k auraton k saath nhi..Aakash Thakur k biwi k saath phs gyi..

Aapko pta h ekbar hamare pet me dard ho rha tha bht zyada..Wo aurat aakar inke saamne bol di ham natak kr rhe zyada..Ye hamko usi k samne thappad mare the...

S- Or ni to kya bhabhi uski Wjh s hamko bhi maar pda tha..

C- Kya Raman bhaiya bhi???

S- Haa bhabhi sare marad aise hi hote hain..Sab marte hain..Jab man kiya bistar p patak k apni zarurat poori kr li..Haa magar marne k baad maafi bhi mang lete hain mere wale..Or do din tak nhi chodte apni marzi se..

D- Ham to kya hi btaye bhabhi..Mera to bss yhi Dil krta hai ki mout aa jaye jab wo marte hain...

I got silent by listening all this now..He has never raised his hand on me till now..

D- Aap ki kismat achi hai bhabhi..Thoda gussa wale hain par inse to bht ache hain...

Tbhi to kl us aurat ko samjha hi diya ache se..Usko laga sare pati ki tarah wo bhi waise hi karenge..Par maaji or wo dono sochi bhi nhi hongi ki bhaiya usi ka gala pakad lenge..

I smiled listening this..Ok now I am may be missing him..But why didn't he came home till now.. Again I am not missing him now..And my boobs are also hurting now.. Maybe because of the medicine I took yesterday which he gave me...

C- Koi ache nhi hain wo..Kal se gayab hain wo..Abhi tak ghr ni aaye hain..

They both started giggling..

D- Bhabhi aapko aise dekh kar bht acha lgta hai..Aapke or bhaiya k rishte me kitna kuch badal gya hai..Pahle aap uff tak nhi krti thi bhaiya k saamne...

S- Haa siwaaye chudne ke

D &S - 😂😂😂😂

D- 😂😂😂Acha bhabhi mazak s hat kar..Pahle aap unse dur bhagti thi or ab unka intezar kr rhi..

S- Or bhabhi bhaiya gayab nhi hue..Wo to bahar gye h sheher me kal raat tak waapas aayenge.. Hamko inse pata chala..

C- Kyaaaa??? Bahar gye hain do din k liye..Or hamko btaya tak nhi..Khaak ache hain...

They both also became silent..I spent my whole day by my daily routine..I was so upset..I mean I know it's not his job to tell me..But I was hurt yesterday and he didn't even cared enough to ask about me..

I was so wrong that he cared..

I was feeling so emotional..I don't know why..Next day also the day went same..But at afternoon every family member went out of the house for some pooja done in mahadev mandir...One person was to be left in the house and Digvijay said Dhuni will stay without even caring for her..But my MIL said no Chandni should stay.. Akash is coming today..

I looked at Dhuni..She was so excited when she listened they will go outside of this haveli..I can understand her excitement..In these sixth month I have not seen any lady of the house to go outside..

I said I will stay..He is also coming but most importantly I am feeling that my milk will come out anytime..And I will be so embarassed infront of whole family..They all went in evening..Most of the servants went with them..They needed help for making of Prasad for whole village..

It was getting difficult for me now bcoz my boobs were paining bcoz of milk..I needed to pump out the milk but I was afraid of him..

I came in my room and started freshening up after eating dinner.. Suddenly my room door opened..I looked there but no one was there..And suddenly I realised there was a storm outside..I quickly stood and tried to close the window that started to open and close with force..I tried to close it but I got scared seeing the storm and darkness outside.. Suddenly the light goes out..I came outside my room and saw whole haveli was dark...I started panicking..I started calling servants name but no one was responding..I saw someone's shadow behind the pillar..I got scared.. Tears started falling from my eyes.. Everybody in the village knows I am alone in the haveli today..Servants are also not answering..Thakur ji will also not come to save me..He must have gotten stuck in this storm .. Suddenly again there was a lightning 🌩️ 🌩️ I looked towards the main gate it was closed..Oh my God it's sure now that someone has entered the house..If Thakur ji would have came he would have said something..Why will he be silent.. Then suddenly I saw another shadow beside gate coming towards me..Oh my God I today I am going to die or worse they are gonna rape me..

Thakur ji will not accept me after that..What will I do???